I completely relate to your experience. I spent 7 years in an American city (which is much much much more quieter than any Indian town) before moving back to Delhi. And I constantly find myself getting stressed by the sounds- of the traffic, of the kitchen, of the crowds. But this was more at a physical level- my resting heart rate was actually up and my watch alerted me. At an emotional level, I found myself constantly exhausted- because as you point out- we cannot listen to ourselves anymore and that connection with inner self is much needed. Slowly I am trying to make that time for myself consciously- find my own space (both physical and temporal).
Right? I find it really hard to connect with my inner self with so much going on around and so much being expected of me. But yeah, I'm also trying to find my rhythm in the chaos and not let my voice completely drown in the noise. Even as I'm typing this, my background score is the construction sound!
Nivetha - I cannot fully express how much I love this! All of what you've articulated has been swishing around in my mind lately... It's as if someone looked at the inside of my head and sorted all the chaos out 🥰
Having spent 27 years of my life at my parents home to now living all by myself in Bir, you have encapsulated the difference between the two so beautifully. Loved your take on silence and the noise one can make in their own company and how rich it is to be able to do so.
I completely relate to your experience. I spent 7 years in an American city (which is much much much more quieter than any Indian town) before moving back to Delhi. And I constantly find myself getting stressed by the sounds- of the traffic, of the kitchen, of the crowds. But this was more at a physical level- my resting heart rate was actually up and my watch alerted me. At an emotional level, I found myself constantly exhausted- because as you point out- we cannot listen to ourselves anymore and that connection with inner self is much needed. Slowly I am trying to make that time for myself consciously- find my own space (both physical and temporal).
I wish you luck in your journeys.
Right? I find it really hard to connect with my inner self with so much going on around and so much being expected of me. But yeah, I'm also trying to find my rhythm in the chaos and not let my voice completely drown in the noise. Even as I'm typing this, my background score is the construction sound!
I wish you luck too!
Nivetha - I cannot fully express how much I love this! All of what you've articulated has been swishing around in my mind lately... It's as if someone looked at the inside of my head and sorted all the chaos out 🥰
Thank you!!! We seem to able to read each others thoughts a lot!!!
Having spent 27 years of my life at my parents home to now living all by myself in Bir, you have encapsulated the difference between the two so beautifully. Loved your take on silence and the noise one can make in their own company and how rich it is to be able to do so.